At the end of the day, the sinus problems I have experienced can be described as now six months of hell. Reality is they were pretty messed up before last fall and I didn't even realize. Even in the almost two years I wasn't sick, I always had congestion. I thought it was normal. Now I can look back and see, that since last fall I did not feel at all like myself, I lost productivity, was constantly on edge, took myself way too seriously, and was not enjoying life, which in and of itself is a major problem, because life, as the cliche goes, is really too short.
I've turned the page and now see that this experience, at least the last two months, were actually pretty positive and moved along quickly. I think, knock on wood, that this has been a life changing procedure.
My blog has been a little unfair to some, and too kind to others. Note I have left all names and places out of this blog to protect those who may be otherwise insulted or feel inaccurately portrayed by my sarcastically composed account of real events. I realize that I may have come across as, well, a little bit of a brat. It's meant to be schtick, and just that. A documented journal for me to remember and hopefully laugh about in the future, and to entertain others and maybe lightheartedly educate those who are going through the same thing..... nonfiction with a sardonic edge. I will say, everything I have said is absolutely true.
One thing that was a major epiphany for me is that our health truly is precious, and as my dad always says, "it's the single most important thing you have". It's not like I don't pay attention to my health. I eat pretty clean most of the time, exercise in spurts, and generally don't abuse my body. I need to drop some weight, but that's a process, and it seems to be working, so I am feeling pretty good. So, I guess my new year starts now, and I can build my body/mind/soul/environment lists with additional perspective, and with a renewed commitment to honor my "temple" in a more meaningful and powerful way than ever before.
I am thankful to many people, some of whom I should have thanked a long time ago. I don't know why I waited until now, especially when I had those nights when my head hurt so much I thought it was the end of me. Talk about lack of closure. I would have been seriously bummed if I had not been able to express appreciation because I was dead. Another lesson learned.
I am grateful to my family, near and far, who have shown concern and support and not abandoned me when I have been undoubtedly a major pain in the ass to be around. My husband Herbie gets a special shout out. Patience of a Saint.
I am grateful for a great support network at work and team of coworkers who continue to be the best in our business, and have been both patient and kind. And to my boss, Harry, who was unwavering in his support of me.
I am grateful to the ENT, who I believe has corrected this issue that has been an issue for probably much longer than I knew, and, for at the end of the day, giving me the insight to trust modern medicine again.
I am grateful to the anesthesiologist who made sure I remained alive during and after surgery.
I am grateful to those friends who showed concern and support, in particular (and I am naming first names here) Jane and Seth.
I am grateful to some of the nice people at the hospital who showed that they did actually care (but not that lady who told me to read the instructions to ring the silver buzzer, she was lame).
And finally, I'm really grateful to my employer for such a fantastic health insurance plan.
I may not be 100% me yet, but pretty soon, the me I know and love, and that others knew and loved, will return better than ever. I'm looking forward to a day in the near future where I can take a deep breath after a long run, ....right through my nose.
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